Hormone Overload

Some people handle change well, but not me. The huge change in hormones when I'm pregnant sends me into a downward health spiral. I went in Monday and found I was down 12 pounds in a week and got a PIC Line put in my upper right arm. It feeds a line into my chest and allows anything infused in to bypass my stomach. I am hooked up 24/7 to a special mixture called TPN. It is a bag of fluids and stuff made for me. It has stuff like glucose, potassiumn, sodiumn, calciumn, magnesium, and we add a multivitamn and folic acid into it.



I have a home health nurse come by every few days to draw blood for labs and to change out all the dressings and replaceable tubing. I have been on these bags for 8 days and there isn't really and end insight. I am not allow to eat or drink anything by mouth and haven't since Sunday the 16th. The worst of it all is that my body still wants to throw-up, and since I'm not eating it either is stomach acid, or dry heaves! I haven't really been out in a while. Friday I went to my sister Heather's house to meet my brother Brian's fiance' Laura. I teared up in the car because it was nice just to be out of the house. And Saturday my friend Jill took me out to Target. It was a very short trip, and it made me feel really tired!

Paul and the kids have been very supportive. Autumn says "Hi" to the baby all the time, which helps me remember what I am doing. Sometimes it is hard to continue, but those thoughts are few and quickly replaced with all the good memories of a new baby. Austin is my big helper who at the age of 6 is doing more than most teenagers. Paul works hard all day at work, and then comes home and shows the kids good times. he takes them out to the park and on errands and the kids can't wait to have him home. He took them to the park last week and flew kites and took their bikes so they could play!



He has learned to hook up my IV bags and does it every night for me. He also helps me wash my hair, and keeps me laughing and smiling. I know without him I couldn't be doing this. I know he is tired but he doesn't let it show. And he is really considerate with food around me. He avoids a lot of things because of the smell, or the fact that I love and miss it so much! My family has been great to. Amber has been there to talk to when I am having a hard moment. Heather helps to remind me it is all worth it. Seeing her baby belly Friday really helped through the weekend. The whole clan ate waffles Friday because I knew I could handle the smell-thanks guys. And my mom is priceless. She came out yesterday and drove me to my doctor appointment. Then spent the whole day with the kids and I. She hung with them and gave them love and attention while cleaning up my messy house. Paul was speechless and so grateful to come home and find the floors vacumned and mop, dinner made, and children bathed. She also totally understands what I am going through because she went through it to! I Love You MOM!! Thank-you for all you do, and your willingness to do more.

I know this has been a long post, I just want to remember it all. And I know some of you couldn't fathom dealing with this. I am not brave or strong, just glutten for punishment in the long journey of growing another baby. I really lean upon Paul and close friends and family to help me remember that this is a blessing and that I have survived it twice. This better go well, because this is it for me. I can't put my kids through this again. And I miss eating food. So eat a lot during your Thanksgiving celebrations, and thanks for the love and support!!