Hormone Overload

Some people handle change well, but not me. The huge change in hormones when I'm pregnant sends me into a downward health spiral. I went in Monday and found I was down 12 pounds in a week and got a PIC Line put in my upper right arm. It feeds a line into my chest and allows anything infused in to bypass my stomach. I am hooked up 24/7 to a special mixture called TPN. It is a bag of fluids and stuff made for me. It has stuff like glucose, potassiumn, sodiumn, calciumn, magnesium, and we add a multivitamn and folic acid into it.



I have a home health nurse come by every few days to draw blood for labs and to change out all the dressings and replaceable tubing. I have been on these bags for 8 days and there isn't really and end insight. I am not allow to eat or drink anything by mouth and haven't since Sunday the 16th. The worst of it all is that my body still wants to throw-up, and since I'm not eating it either is stomach acid, or dry heaves! I haven't really been out in a while. Friday I went to my sister Heather's house to meet my brother Brian's fiance' Laura. I teared up in the car because it was nice just to be out of the house. And Saturday my friend Jill took me out to Target. It was a very short trip, and it made me feel really tired!

Paul and the kids have been very supportive. Autumn says "Hi" to the baby all the time, which helps me remember what I am doing. Sometimes it is hard to continue, but those thoughts are few and quickly replaced with all the good memories of a new baby. Austin is my big helper who at the age of 6 is doing more than most teenagers. Paul works hard all day at work, and then comes home and shows the kids good times. he takes them out to the park and on errands and the kids can't wait to have him home. He took them to the park last week and flew kites and took their bikes so they could play!



He has learned to hook up my IV bags and does it every night for me. He also helps me wash my hair, and keeps me laughing and smiling. I know without him I couldn't be doing this. I know he is tired but he doesn't let it show. And he is really considerate with food around me. He avoids a lot of things because of the smell, or the fact that I love and miss it so much! My family has been great to. Amber has been there to talk to when I am having a hard moment. Heather helps to remind me it is all worth it. Seeing her baby belly Friday really helped through the weekend. The whole clan ate waffles Friday because I knew I could handle the smell-thanks guys. And my mom is priceless. She came out yesterday and drove me to my doctor appointment. Then spent the whole day with the kids and I. She hung with them and gave them love and attention while cleaning up my messy house. Paul was speechless and so grateful to come home and find the floors vacumned and mop, dinner made, and children bathed. She also totally understands what I am going through because she went through it to! I Love You MOM!! Thank-you for all you do, and your willingness to do more.

I know this has been a long post, I just want to remember it all. And I know some of you couldn't fathom dealing with this. I am not brave or strong, just glutten for punishment in the long journey of growing another baby. I really lean upon Paul and close friends and family to help me remember that this is a blessing and that I have survived it twice. This better go well, because this is it for me. I can't put my kids through this again. And I miss eating food. So eat a lot during your Thanksgiving celebrations, and thanks for the love and support!!

My First ER Visit!

So, yesterday was a hard day. I hadn't been feeling good for a few days and decided yesterday to go in for a bag of fluids. Easy enough-or so I thought. I was down 7 pounds and shedding keatones like crazy. When you shed keatones it means your body is breaking down muscles to live off of. Not good. I am only at 9 weeks and this normally doesn't happen until 13-15 weeks. So we tried to start a line 8 times but because I was so dehyrated my veins wouldn't hold. They sent me to the ER and before trying my foot for an entry point I convinced them into trying my forearm. Success!! We got in a line and I infused 2 bags of fluids.
Paul had to come home form work early to get the kids from school, and then helped me eat and drink some stuff last night. Nothing stayed in, but at least I tried. Today I am going to get a permanent line put in for IVs. It is hard to wrap my head around the likely hood of having to do this for an extended period of time so early on in the pregnancy. I am so grateful for the priesthood my husband holds, and for the great bleesing he gave me last night. The end will so justify the journey it takes to get there!! I am just glad to be 9 weeks into all this, only 31 weeks to go!

My Little Peanut!

I had my 8 week check-up today and Autumn got to come with me. I am holding steady at 183 lbs. which is great considering all the yuckiness I have been struggling with. The doctor gave me an ultrasound and Autumn was so excited to see the baby and hold the picture they printed for us. Do to the size of the baby they have changed my due date to June 24th. So, I am at 6 weeks pregnant instead of 8! I also had to do my bloodwork today, Autumn was nervous for me. She held my hand and whispered reassuring words to me. It was great to see the baby and to share that with Autumn!!


I had my first major moment of pregnancy stupidity! Halloween I couldn't find my battery charger dock for the camera. Paul and I hunted high and low for it multiple times. I even looked in empty purses and both cars. Well, Paul found it plugged in at it's usual location by the microwave. I had chekced all the counters, drawers and cupboards, even under the microwave and missed it! At least it wasn't a kid!!


I have been taking Zofran a medicine to help with the nasuea. It helps to make me feel really hungry, but when I eat I get sick and can't keep it down. So, that one doesn't seem to work. I am still able to keep small amounts of water down, but I am paying close attention to how I feel. Any signs of dehydration and I'll need to head in for an IV! Overall I am doing alright. I have my moments of doubts but Paul is there to remind me that it is only until June! He has been great at keeping me positive! And whenever he gets home from work he takes over while I rest and sleep.
The other night I crashed at 7pm and slept clear through to 8am. It felt so good.

I had Paul take some belly shots. They aren't very big, but it is protruding slightly!

Halloween Fun!

This year was so much fun for halloween. At school they have a costume parade, and parties. I helped out in both classrooms. The kids were all so excited! We carved our pumpkin. Then we went Trunk-or-Treating at the Corona Stake Center. We also went to a few of our neighbors houses when we got home. Overall it was a great day!

Give me a T-R-E-A-T!! Autumn was a Cheerleader!


I feel the need, the need for speed!! Austin was a Top Gun Pilot!


The kids have fun scooping out the goop and getting a turn at carving!